Goddess Lilith okays goodbye in a card reading

For being resistant to the male ego, Lilith (Adam’s original first wife) is legend as a demon.

Because walking away was the best way for her to remain pure.

I have been meddling with authenticity since January to be honest. Keeping a watchful eye on how my soul path was changing. I already know that many don’t like my bark or my bite so they ostracize me like Lilith. It befuddled people to see me so cut throat. I say NO really firmly because it’s just the way the cookie crumbles. However, their ego feels hurt because they did not get some of my energy for their cause…too bad.

Preaching positivity or demanding people to see globs of color in life is inauthentic. Life is not always rosey posey. Life is not really anything at all. We as humans pretend to create chaos for the sake of order and control. We as humans love to harp on one another’s faults and mishaps in order to find smooth duality between light and dark.

Who cares.

Lilith spoke to me all month in honor of authenticity. I am glad she done so because I have foreseen change a mile away. The storm that rages inside me is already here and like Elsa from Frozen I too must find a way to cope. Yesterday, I performed a card reading for myself and it pinpoints very important factors in my life that resonate well with what I have been grappling with all month long especially on the business front.

  • The lack of appreciation.
  • Desiring freedom to choose my reality.
  • Creating my own temple.
  • Resistance to walking away.

The last message of walking away struck me hard. Truth be told, I wanted to do this since the beginning of the year, but mustered some justifications to stay. Why? I am not entirely sure. I genuinely give situations a positive spin naturally because hope makes miracles, but like any of my relationships, goodbye is certainly equal to hello.

I am not here to steal, corrupt or hurt. Fulfill was the word that came to me during a staff meeting at work a few days ago. We all pulled an inspiration word from a basket and so I had to think long and hard about what it was this word means to me for the sake of Lilith and authenticity. Fulfilling people’s energy with my own is my purpose but I can’t continue to pour my heart & soul into many vessels at once. I prefer to focus immensely on one cause or entity and then move on to the next.

This is where I am on my soul path. Moving on because I’ve already reached many goals and understand many things. It’s time to say goodbye. Next month’s Soul Path Tribe goddess is Changing Woman and you should consider changing up your lifestyle and join the tribe. As for me, I will be listening to Lilith and my intuition and walking away from it.

About these ads

My first rock and gem show turns insta-perfect

Meet Russell, a 38-foot long T-Rex photoI haven’t written anything in such a long time.

I sorry.

Last week was a whirlwind of energy and I avoided  my pre-assigned to-do list because one thing after the other came at me in a bizarre impromptu sort of way. I was totally going with the flow to heed my intuition’s advice. Rest. Relax. Rest. Relax. Repeat. It certainly has prepared me for what’s to come – full moon eclipse – it’s happening this week!

So because I am a tad behind in letting you know about my life, I will quickly update you:

My birthday – I turned 23-years-old. This is actually the first time I felt literally older. Other years were so blasé. I kindly received and accepted many Facebook wishes and gifts! Yup! This year proved to be the year, I would receive the most gifts. I even got a Gap gift card from a past inamorato. (That sent me for a loop but I accepted it with grace and ease.)

Chakra Rhythm class – The second module of my certification began. We are focusing on our root chakras and working our way up. Mostly that’s been self-driven and hermit like but still something I must do before bed along with keeping up with my Color Club playtime.

Herkimer diamonds are a boy’s best friend –  My birthstone appreciation class at Thrive was dry. No one showed up and I am left to freshen up the atmosphere with these crystal classes, something a little more magical needs to occur instead of a visual escape. At least that’s what my boss would like anyhow.

Private meditation session - Mid-week brought me to working privately with a firefly in need of some meditation. I improvised there and added the Herkimer class into our 90 minute session. She was absolutely grateful and I know she was meant to connect with the crystal anyhow!

Small business networking – I met up with Francesca from BEST Holistic Wellness and we talked loads about biz stuff. Then I went to my Equality Pennsylvania planning meeting where I will be canvassing small businesses around town to gain support of non-discrimination with LGBTQ individuals.

A birthday present – One of the gifts I received was an ayurvedic massage from Thrive Wellness Center. This is the bravest thing I did since skinny dipping in the river last year. Oh when it comes to getting naked, I am still accepting my body and such so to connect more deeply and profoundly with the experience and my chakras I smiled and accepted the treatment. I am so grateful I did too! Taking the time to release all that tension in my neck and shoulders is what I needed! The energy has been blocked in the area for so long and it just felt good to release. My dosha is vatta but I am very close to balancing all three.

My first gem show – I took to the road with a few of the  mineralogical society members this past weekend and we immersed ourselves in with crystals, fossils and high-priced gemstones. I was in awe with how much I’ve seen and who I connected my energy with! My favorite encounters were with the Busse family from the show, Prospectors and then an Instagram follower! Yeah baby, it was surreal to be meeting someone from the inter-webs. She actually spotted me and inquired about us following each other on there! It was so funny and I did a mini color reading for her and her lovely friend! I am so grateful to have exchanged energy with the Busse family (I bought a lovely Idaho opal ring) and performed some color blessings for two fireflies! Bliss that’s all I can say!

So as you can see, my week was jammed with lots of vibrant manifestation. In case you missed it on Facebook, here are some pictures from my gem show rendezvous…

Until the next post, love light and color!

A backyard photo shoot with Lilith

 booty photoThis month’s guiding Goddess in the Soul Path Tribe is the legendary and fearsome female of ancient biblical days, Lilith. She chose not to succumb to Adam’s dominance and her story shaded with demonic value is what our society has left. (Or so it seems.)

Lilith’s story reveals precision and class in times of passionate (sometimes sexual) authority.

As synchronicity would be, I started watching Game of Thrones: season one. The amount of sex and gore in it is entertaining to say the least, but of course devout Christians would frown upon the risqué and grim aspects invading the air waves. Oh well.

April’s theme that Lilith brings to the table is all about authenticity. To me this says we need to live equally in our light and our shadow. It surely makes you question yourself and your faith because to be authentic must mean the energy you project and experience is nothing less than real. Of course we like a strong honest connection to our identity, worth and everlasting faith to experience true peace but it may cause conflict with others that choose to express their identity, worth and faith differently. (This would be the color of diversity.)

But, we must not confuse authenticity with right and wrong. I learned this as I took monochromatic photos in my backyard today. The last time I expressed myself so intently with black & white photography was a couple of years ago in Scotland.

I miss the UK.

When I take colorless photos that appear in rich white, elegant black and varied shades of grey, there is no pressure in doing it right or wrong. No colors to divert my consciousness, just abstractions of the seeing world play with my artistic eye. An inner knowing is conveyed through the shapes, sizes and movement captured within the photograph.

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

As I reflected with each scene and pondered by the koi fish, I asked myself what does it mean to be authentically me in this moment. I realized that I very much so appreciate the finer aspects of life but equally fear that which makes me happy. I’ve been in a turbulent wind tunnel the past few days trying to catch my breath because of this month’s calendar being so jam-packed with amazing things like a LIVE radio appearance, attending my first rock & gem show and keeping up with the awesomely sexy color club. Going outside and soaking up the renewing sun eased these anxious feelings, I’ve been holding back and of course taking lovely backyard photos in honor of Lilith offered me time to spend with the goddess energy.

There is balance and peace already here, and it’s in our best interest to seize it with as much authenticity as possible. Cutting away the colors that distract us can help us see the world in its fundamental structure and true form. Black and white are still colors. It’s just that by graceful design one absorbs all the colors and the other reflects them back into the universe.

A natural union of give and take if you ask me.